I am just your average Catholic gal, but becoming a mother and a cancer patient has changed me beyond belief. I owe it all to my wonderful family: husband, son, and daughter! Here you will read my ravings, rantings, and rationalizations. I am quite wordy and nerdy. Simon and Rachel tell me many things, but most of all they remind me... I need to remember my purpose for life - living, loving, and being as God has planned for me!
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Friday, July 31, 2009
It has begun...
I'm laying in the hospital hooked up to my chemo drugs. I'll be here for 3 days. Simon & my mom & dad came by to see me. Simon brought me a balloon and dad brought me flowers. I'm already kind of tired already. I didn't sleep all that well last night. So far I've gotten the F & C portions of my FAC protocol. The A drug is the one that has to go in for 3 days. When my pump comes in, I won't have to stay in the hospital for treatment. I get this treatment every 3 weeks. Andrew is staying overnight with me at least for tonight. I love my husband. I'm feeling a bit emotional. Don't know if its the chemo, pregnancy, or stress. Oh well.
I would say that it is probably a little of everything. You have a lot on your shoulders right now. It can be overwhelming. Please give yourself a chance to adjust to all of this. I was weepy all of the time....but I didn't want to cry in front of my kids, so I'd wait until I was in the shower and then cried in there. It's ok to be scared, anxious, emotional....even all at the same time. The first treatment is always the most difficult because there is the fear of the unknown. As you move along, you will not be so scared of it all.
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Nancy