Last day of freedom...

Well, tomorrow I start work. My very first day will be spent at court. It shouldn't be too bad though since its just chain of custody. Of course, I've not been able to review any of my documentation, but that should only take me a few minutes!

Today the kids & I are going with mom to her 3 month oncologist appointment. She's also going to have Lukas. We'll probably grab a bite to eat & pick one store to shop. Then we'll make our way home.

One of the foobs has moved closer to under my arm-pit (the left one). I also noticed that the right one has rotated about 180 degrees... Don't know what I did, but they're apparently not content to stay in one place. Makes me glad the plastic surgeon is wanting to use round implants. That way they can rotate around at will. The biggest problem will be if they migrate towards my arm-pits. The scabbed areas on the right are finally shrinking too. The main scab went from the size of a nickel to where its now about 1/2 a centimeter by 1 cm (rectangular).

However, I am disappointed to find out that all this time I've been going bra-less its been obvious. No one told me until yesterday when I was talking about how to dress for work. So I've been to church, concerts (religious ones), town, doctors appointments, etc all while it was obvious I wasn't wearing a bra. I was self-conscious enough, but now I'm going to be worse b/c I'm still not allowed to wear a bra (don't want to compromise circulation in any way or irritate the scab to where it comes off prematurely). However, it would have been nice to know earlier so I could at least prepare &/or figure out which shirts do the best job of disguising my bra-less-ness. Sigh... If its not one thing I don't like about my new body, its another. :-(

Unfeeling can sometimes be a good thing!

I got to thinking last night as I watched a couple of my scabs pull this way & that, that sometimes its truly a blessing to not have feeling in my new foobs right now! I'm still having LOTS of trouble w/ that tissue on the right side & the incision line. The tissue's scab is hanging on by what seems to be a thread. I took a shower to make sure it was clean last night & as the water poured over it (moving it slightly) I was profoundly glad I can't feel it! You know how scabs that are just barely hanging in there feel - right? They feel AWFUL! However, except for some shooting pains occasionally, I can't feel my foobs. I can feel pressure on my rib cage & muscles, but otherwise, its not even like the feeling you get at the dentist's office. Its the complete absence of feeling - not numbness - if that makes sense. Right now I think its probably a blessing! :-D

The kids are still snotty (both behavior & noses)! ;-) It seems Rachel's skin is improving, but her nose & cough are not. Poor thing. I put her to bed early tonight b/c she just seemed so miserable. Simon's still hanging in there. He's really trying to feel better - even to the point of saying "feel better" to himself. He's also gotten *really* good at blowing his nose! It was so funny today... We were at mom's w/ Abby, Sarah, & Lukas. Abby was playing house w/ Simon & Sarah - Simon was the daddy and Sarah was the baby (she'll actually lay down & take a 'nap' for Abby). Both Abby & Simon have play cell phones. So Abby 'called' Simon and asked him what he wanted for supper. Simon's answer was "pork chops" w/o prompting at all! Mom & I just looked at each other & giggled. So guess what I made tonight??? Pork chops! :-D

Electric day!

Well, today was apparently a bad day for everyone! All the kids were cranky & whiney. To try to help mom out & get Simon to take a better nap I brought my 2 home around 1pm. I didn't/don't feel 100%. I tried to have all three of us nap simultaneously, but of course, that never works out... First Rachel wouldn't sleep. Then once we (Rachel & I) got to sleep, Simon woke up crying. Andrew didn't get home from work until 8pm. Its been crazy.

Rachel's rash is looking better though. We've been using the steroid cream from the doctor - for another week - since Monday night. I'm also only bathing her on alternate nights in Aveeno oatmeal baths. Tonight was an off night for the bath! She's eating well, but now her nose is runny! Geez, these allergies are hitting hard this year!

Simon's nose is *still* doing its crazy dripping. He's still coughing too. I'm pretty sure its just allergies w/ him too. Last night he was coughing so hard from post-nasal drip that he was gagging himself. Of course, I also think he's going through a super-sensitive-gag-reflex time. Its kind of obvious though that he's just kind of miserable. We watched some TV (Cars, Big Foot, & Chuggington) and colored some pictures (a Mater print out & a free-hand tractor-disk-Mustang Cobra combination).

I don't really know what's up with me. I'm just absolutely exhausted. Partly I know its b/c I stay on the computer too late at night, but its the only opportunity I get. Its also partly probably allergies - my eyes are itchy, my throat gets sort of achy every once in a while, etc. Plus, for some reason I keep having shooting pains where I have no feeling - in the foobs. I'm also having some trouble getting to sleep. I toss & turn & try to get comfortable for a long time. A good portion of that is b/c I'm still not able to sleep on my stomach like I want to do.